“Nev'th'less,
she stood there. All hangedy-outy like she was. You know how she
was.” Folly Martin sucked a bit of barbecue out of his teeth and
spat after he said this. “Damby, but'n if she wasn't a fool
sometimes. Know what I mean, Tiller?”
Tiller
just kept quiet and kicked at the dust. Lots of dust in Crawford
County, there is. That's what my uncle John always used to say.
“Lots
of dust here in the county,” he'd say.
Can't
blame a man for just saying what's true. You know what I mean.
Anyhow,
Folly spit some barbecue out of his teeth again and Tiller kicked the
dust. “I think she knew it was the end,” he said, “and she
didn't care too much. And I don't rightly mean she was hangedy-outy
in that she was anything other than likin' to hang out with folks.
Know what I mean?”
The
question was again met with silence and a kick of the dust. Tiller
pushed his baseball cap back off his forehead and cleared his throat.
“She
never said anything, until I said something that I didn't think I was
gonna' say.” said Folly. “Somethin' pretty bad. Not 'bout her
or anything, just 'bout me. She knew it and I knew it, and she just
made a noise so's there was no way I could miss what she meant by it.
It was like a cry. A cry, I tell you. A cry. Anyone ever do
anything like that for you? Do something without sayin' a word so's
that you know exactly what they mean?”
Tiller
scratched the center of his chest and coughed. He spit again into
the dirt, and then pulled his cap down again over his eyes.
“So
we all knew. She knew anyway. I think ever' damned person knew,”
said Folly. “I just had to get over it and not say it again. You
hear?”
Tiller
looked off at the dry pea fields. “Who wouldn't cry?” he asked in
a voice. A voice like bitter anguish.
We've
all got a voice like that somewhere, I'd guess.
And
in that harsh southern sun another patch of Crawford County dust got
hard baked like a stone of stumbling.
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